Sick!

Sorry for being such a bad blog friend. The past week, i've been very crooked, and having alot of cramping, Not sure if its associated with the Merena or not. I've already told blair, if it doesn't stop by July 18th when i see my gyn, it's comming on.

Nothing really new to update. We decided not to get the van afterall. we only got approved for so much, and a brnad new van is 32,000, so we would have to get used.. and the one I wanted was out of our price range. When your on Maternity (not sure if i mentioned it yet.) your income doesn't qualify towards the financing, (only your credit score.) so where blair's income is so all over the place, it kinda screwed us. We decided to wait for Febuary, for me to get back to work. and then we are going to go to Terra Nova and buy a brand new van. I was a bit hastey on buying used anyways, cause you really don't know.. People usually trade in vehicles sometimes, cause they are having problems with it, or whatnot. and my luck, we will get one of those ones where the vehicle was not treated good.

on top of everything, i'm dying with the flu. and we all know, Your children doesn't stop when your not feeling well.. and i'm so lucky to be home with them all day, and blair having to work a 12 hour shift when i need him the most, so i could get some sleep. Brady has been up a lot the past few nights as well, so i'm not getting my full night sleep, like i usually do. I feel like crap.
I've gone thru one of those travellers hand santizers, in two days. I really am trying to prevent claire and brady from getting sick, as well i'm stopping from going ANYWHERE. i hate passing on the flu, and this is probably why we all get sick so much, because alot of people don't stay home, they still go to the grocery stores, malls, etc. I know, i've been guilty of it before, but it would do so much good, we were able to stay home when we were sick, but sick time at work, etc doesn't always help us.


Anwyays, kraft dinner is on the stove.. i'm so tired and drainned that i got no energy to really prepare something good.. I cooked Chicken Breast for dinner, so i put extra on the stove then for blair, so when he gets home tonight he'll have a supper anyways.

Quote to end the day :


Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

welll.. that sucks.

Maybe i shouldn't ever had mention it, Nor should I haven't got excited about it, since in all reality, Me being on Maternity, and Blair' only working at his job,less than a year none the less a "Casual On Call." that this wouldn't be a good idea. But, we found out we could bring back our lease, early.. and get a new vehicle. so we decided to grab at it, and found a great van, that i FELL in love with. Blair, went thru the whole application first. The bank approved him, although you have to get employment letter to prove you work where you say you do, at least this is what they wanted where he is a casual.. and i knew right down under since we had this problem before.. When we applyed for the mortgage, They had a HUGE issue with me working as a "CASUAL" under two years.. Usually anything after two years, they find it a conreate employment... but blair is only gonna be there a year, next month. so duh duh donnnnnnnnnn... anyways, sends that all off.. well. came back they needed my name, and i knew i had too much on my name, for the income im' getting now. (hear me complain about the 45% pay cut now.) so with the mortgage, credit cards, and student loan...duh duh donnnnnnnnnnn.. anyways, There still might be a chance buddy can do something since we have good payments with our lease.. But.... i'm not holding my breathe..

next year i'll be back to work FULL TIME, so we can get the van then. but its a sure bummer on what athing to do, to spoil my weekend. urrrrrrrrggg..
and This weekend...
I'm going to my friend's fantasia, getting super drunk, going home to bed without kids..sleep in.. go pick up kids.. then tomorrow night I am having a "girls night out" with the NLMOMS. Can't wait.

Anyways thats about it.

Payday, Broke tomorrow!!!

Yes, Thats what it always is. When come payday, I'll sit down. and straigthen away some bills, pay them, and see whats left to spend. I love going shopping --even if its grocery shopping. From now on though, its going to be strict saving. I've even picked up a babysitting job, for 25.00/day. this money, is strickly being put away each week, to a bank account, that I will not have the BANK CARD, i will just go in there every friday, deposit the money into the account, and forget about it. I wonder, if the bank could but a hold on it, like Not allowed to withdrawl anything, till a certain date. Meh.. At least i have the account that way, i'm happy. I didn't even do it with my bank, i just went to another bank and did it, so i could not see any of the money on my Online Banking. If i see the money, i'll spend it. Don't see it, no worrys! We decided on going to DR this upcomming april. its a year away, but certainly something to look forward to.



Another good thing thats happening in my life. is we are finally getting rid of our car. Yes, we had a g5 Pontaic Pursuit.. great little car - not so great with two children. way to small!! The trunk to get a stroller in there, you have to twist and turn. I hate that. I've been saying even when we just had claire, "I wish i had a van, Wish i had a van".. welll. guesss who will have one in the next few days?!?! Moi :) I got my wish. Its red, and its a year old. but low km's. and its a short box one.. I really didn't want the long box!!! Here is a picture, OF THE EXACT VAN.



















thats the van , we are getting. so excited for it.

Tomorrow, is my sister's graduation. She is getting her Dimploa. This girl, went a whole year, going to school 8-2, working 2:30pm-1:30am, going home and then getting up at 6:30 for school again. i don't know how she did it, but she did it. now she got a diploma, and hopefully be able to get a business up and running in a few short years, experience she needs to get but in time, she'll be great at it. Me, Blair, Claire and Brady will be there Cheering her on.


thats about it, though... Ill update again tomorrow.

May 2-4 Weeked in Review

It's 9:40 pm. and Claire is still running around.. Hyper as ever, and no sign of her laying that sweet head on a pillow, anytime soon. Maybe letting her go to sleep at 7:00pm, on the way home from nanny and Poppy's , was an extreme bad idea. We figured we would let her sleep, cause she didn't have a nap, and as soon as we got home, put her in bed...were we ever wrong. That was the just a booster, to keep her going. so right now, she's here entertaining Brady, since he is also awake. which is rare, he is usually in bed long ago, but since we were out late, our sleeping schedule is a bit off tonight.

I'm sitting here watching Intervention. my favorite Monday night show. Tuesday -nothing really out of interest comes on TV. Wednesday, is me and Blair's night to watch Dog the Bounty Hunter, and the rest of the week, we usually wing it to whatever is on TV. Oh, on Saturday nights if we ain't doing anything , we'll sit down and watch Cops and America's Most Wanted.

This weekend, which went from last week of "calling for snow" turned into a beautiful weekend overall.. Notice why i never updated. I checked a few sites here and there, but didn't bother to stay long, as Claire wanted my full attention outside.. She hates to come indoors, she always wants out. She is such like her father, always on the move. Friday, I had a doctors apt, that turned into 3 hours, never got such good news, but news that could turn into a "happy ever ending" if it turns into my favor i guess. After that appointment, ( i was the last one out of the clinic that's how long i was there.) i packed up Claire and Brady and they went with their nanny and poppy (Blair's Parents.) i enjoyed a night home to myself, with going to bed really early. and not waking up till 9:58.... when i told my friend i would pick her up at 10:30 to go out with her... so after rushing, i got to Valerie 's at 10:30 and went shopping with her.. came home a few hours later, and went home and Brady came home, and Claire stayed with her nanny and poppy.. Me and Brady had visitors, Eva and my friend Natalie and her little boy Terran, came over for a visit.. so glad that i actually had people Wanting to come over.... which is always great.. drove them home, came home, and put Brady to bed. Went to bed around 10:30, and never woke up till 11:30 the next morning....( Blair took Brady in the morning..) ... Blair had to work the night shifts each night, notice why it was just me and the kids this weekend! this probably is all not making sense because I'm rushing this post on what i did. lol.

Anyways plan and simple, it was a quiet, enjoyable weekend full of friends more less and family. also found out my BIL AND SIL are coming home:) so can;t wait to spend some time with my SIL, i can't believe how good we get along, we always did from day one, and talk to each other about stuff without holding back or anything which is always great.. We hit it off when we first met, and I think we are close, just wish she lived down here ! :)

Anyways that's about it!!

QUOTE TO END THE DAY:
Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing people change.

It's Thursday!!

I've been waiting for Thursday to come all week.. Reason being.. It was 20 degree's today!! Yes, the hottest day we've had since , what last September?? ... 20 degree's is 68.° Fahrenheit for people who live in the states and don't know the difference ( to be honest, i didn't know, i had to look it up to change it to Fahrenheit! my bad!!) For Newfoundland, The typical summer's here is 25,27 degrees.. If it gets to 32 degree's (89.6° Fahrenheit) we are pulling out our fans, complaining how hot it is!!! .

This morning, was a morning i took by ear. I had to clean up the house a bit, because i had someone coming to the house. I'm taking in another child, more less to help me and Blair save to go to Dominican Republic next year or a Cruise, still not sure which one we are going to go on. It would be cheaper to go on a "All expense all inclusive" trip which would be to the DR, but i would love to sail around to different places on the cruise.. i know by far i would enjoy that much more than sitting on a hot beach.. So were not sure what we are doing, i still have to compare resorts and the activities that is there to do, BUT since our Anniversary is April 29Th, its the perfect time of year to take a trip down south (before hurricane season.) so, that's what we are doing.. and going without kids!!! lol.. we already had people offered to take them for us , so its a defe.go !!! Just gotta get the money for it. we already have 1000.00 saved for it, but you knows it costs more money than 1000.00 to go down south and if i goes there i wants at least a 4 and half, or 5 star resort.

So after i had the house to my standards, It was 10:00 am, and i decided, Well i got time to get to the playground, so i hoped in the car, stoped into McDonald's to get Claire something to drink, and something quick to eat, and headed on my merry way, even though we were 55 Min's late!! but like i say, better late than sorry!!.

At 12:30, i had company come. Its babysitting a 3 and half year old, and 1 year old. It looks promising. She's a teacher, but unsure if she is going back full time to her full time job, or part-time. but we will see. I told her, i would be fine whatever she needed. I've been on call before, so i know how its like trying to get someone to work around you. thankfully i was lucky to get someone, and she was great, sad that i couldn't afford to send Claire back.

Anyways, after a sunny day, Claire's ready for bed, Brady needs a bath, and its his bedtime, in 45 Min's. My mother in law, is brave enough to be taking both kids tomorrow. I have no worries though, Brady is such a good baby, you don't know he's in the house.. and well they use to Claire. lol..

Thanks for Visiting!

Food Is my addiction.

I was driving down to Torbay yesterday, skipping lunch all together, and just munching on a bag of chips. Then I stopped and thought how much I was enjoying this chilli chips. Then I remembered one thing that I learned from weight watchers, On How The first bite, will never taste as good as the last. I stopped eating those chips, because it’s something I shouldn't be eating. I Love eating strawberries, any kind of fruit, salad, anything like that, so why do I just eat a bag of chips? Simply because it was convenient. Of all the things in my life, I and Food has always had a Love Hate Relationship. I loose weight, I gain wait, I lose 20 lbs, I gain back 40 lbs. I bought a treadmill, a month ago, and frankly haven’t been using it as much as I should be. I used it a lot when I first got it... but stoped... and it went from everyday, to every second, then every third to non-existant. But I’m determine to not let my treadmill, because a clothes hanger. I have to get back on this boat, and stir straight, not sideways or backwards. I know I could do it.


Brady's rash is still persisting. His #2 is still there, after switching formula. I was thinking he was sensitive or had an allergy to milk, so we switched him (upon advice) to Soy Formula. And he is still pooping, not the yellow seedy that he should be, but the dark green oozy stuff. (TMI!). I'm sure if you aren’t a mother, your thinking how gross this post is, but When you become a mother, talking about your child's diarrhea, comes naturally...lol. So I have a doctors appt at 2:40, I’m hoping she's going to tell me its just the stomach bug, and that the rash is just sensitive skin, but inside I know its an allergy, it has to be. I wash all his clothes last night in Baby Soft Detergent that hypoallergenic. We never had this problem with Claire, so I’m getting a bit frustrated that the problem is still happening and not getting better. Although, His Bum is way better now than it was, it was extra. Sore on Friday but now its best king, still read but not extreme, bleeding sore looking. It wasn't bleeding but it looked pretty close!!

Aunt Jennifer came over this morning, and took Claire for a few hours. Claire didn't think twice. If she can get out of the house, she's going with you. She loves the puppies over there though. she plays with them and you ask her "Do you want one?" she goes "okay" as if you suggested it. We aren’t getting a puppy though, mainly because Labrador Retrievers are too big for my liking. I got excited when they were born and wanted one but that was more of an excitement reaction and jumping too quickly. I’m afraid of getting a dog, because I was once told from a realtor, (when we were looking to buy a house) that you can always tell if someone has a dog, because you can always smell a "dog". That scared me I think...lol... it’s so hard to keep up with two children but ti be making sure there isnt wet/muddy paws isnt on your carpet, on your funature, and on your bed, I guess i got a bit of a Phobia. I always grew up with a dog, and I will never decline my children a dog of their own, but I want them to be able both to tell me that they want a dog. My dog that’s living at moms, basically Moms dog now, lol She's a Shih Tzu terrier, and Blair's buddy got a shih Tzu that’s grey and white, and cassie is pure white, we are thinking about breeding them together, so we can have one for our kids. Then the dog will be, small, and good for children, since both dogs have great personalities. And NO HAIR!!! Another phobia, is hair...lol i hate getting ready and hair is all over your clothes. lol.. But in all fairness, I am a BIG dog lover, but know that right now a dog is like a child, and another child to add to my boat isn’t the brightest candle on the cake right now. Anyways, that’s about it really. Starting today, everyday, I'm going to get on the treadmill, and I will post on each post how many I did each day. I will post today’s treadmill time and distance on tomorrow's entry.

Quote to end the day :

Our attitude toward life determines life's attitude towards us - Earl Nightingale

Happy Mother's Day.

I Couldn't get the breakfast in bed, because blair' was working the Nightshift and didn't get home till 8:45 am, and i couldn't expect him to, where he has been working night shifts the past few nights, But i got the next best thing. Brady went to sleep at 9pm last night(While nanny was here.) i went to bed at 10:30pm.. and he slept till 7:30 a.m. so, that is sleeping enough for me!! lol. I Love my Sleep, and everyone who know's me, know's that i do. Although, having children i've learned to cope with only having so much sleep, and geting up at 6-7am, is a signed agreement till they are at least 18 years old..lol. but i wouldn't trade them for the world. Blair had claire taught how to say "Happy Mother's Day", even though it was a bit slurred , i could understand what she was saying, Makes you apperiate everything you have , in your life. and if i was to choose, between single life, and my kids.. I would do this all over again and over as many times as needed.

Another thing that amazes me, is my ability to be able to take two children and go on by myself, without help. Now for everyone who know's me. When brady was born, i had a hard time coping with the fact of what am i going to do , and How am i going to handle two children. I found it so hard to just be able to take care of brady, leave alone take care of claire without leaving her out. this was something i didn't anticipate before brady was born, though but it was my hormones talking, i'm sure. Brady was planned, so i knew i wanted two, but when i was going thru the baby blues, i Just couldn't handle the demands of both children, it was a bit to adjust to. but i can finally say i can do it. Blair usually helps but he has been working alot lately so leaving me to fend for myself. On Friday, i took the kids out by my self out shopping, and Then yesterday (Saturday) , i was able to get both kids and myself bathed, dressed and out the door, went to walmart with two kids, went to dollarama, and went to a birthday party with two kids. Claire threw a tandrum at the party though, I think one lady felt bad for me, cause i had so much to handle, holding on to claire, with a diaper bag, and bradys carseat all at once. She offered to help me to the car with the two kids, but I declined cause i'm used to it now, but i'm sure i looked like a mess, trying to haul claire out of the gym, she wanted to keep playing with the balls, and couldnt understand why the birthday party was over and she had to leave. After the party, we went to Mcdonalds, ( I didn't buy anything, just let claire play in the play area) so she can wear out her energy, Came home, Claire then went to her grandmothers for the night.

Last Night, we all went out to Montana's for supper for Valerie's Birthday.. Its our new thing to do, since we all don't see each other often anymore sicne we all have children , we just can't get out all the time without the kids. We all usually get together for playdates, but getting out together without kids, and enjoy a couple drinks is so much better. So we all said that we would all go out for each other birthdays every time. Seems, like for the next couple months, its every month. lol. next time, will be Amanda's Birthday, June 26th... Sounds like Indian Gate is going to be it. Hopefully we can get a place thats quieter, and we can chat way more than what we could at Montana's.. its so busy there! and then maybe next time we could just go to a bar one ngiht and sit down and just have a few drinks, socialably.

I'm still trying to find out how to join other blogrings, and that on here and how to visit other people's blogs, I'll figure it out someday.

t thats it folks. not much else ! :)
A quote to end the day:

our lives improve only when we take chances,and the first one difficult risk we will take is to be honest with ourselves even if the truth hurts

Carebears are comming to Town!!!

Its Friday! But then again, Being on Maternity (which frankly i'm starting to enjoy it more and more) Everyday is a weekend for me.

To explain, why I didn't like being on Maternity was because the lack of money, You only get 55% of your earnings,(of what you made last year) but your bills never decrease that much!!! LOL. not so much we still make ends meet and have some left over i just can't plan that Going To Toronto Trip that i was going to do, with our taxes. We got Blair's old car up and running instead of buying a second vehicle so we were going to take our taxes and go up to toronto to visit our neice, and blair's brother and SIL.. Although our taxes didn't agree with us, and said we should stay home. i just hate to see next year taxes!!!! . I am hoping to get some money saved now once i go back to work to go away though, I really want to make a trip to the united states for an overnight trip :) I Really enjoyed going across the border last time. Anyways, Back to the story that i waddled off from, The reason why I wanted to go back to work was because i'm not use to having all this time off. I've been off work since November so obviously i'm starting to crack, Although our second car was took off the road for the winter, it left me stuck inside my house which probably made me feel like "oh i wants to get back to work!" Anyways, we got our second car back, new paint job and all, so now i have the newer car back to my itty bitty self to do and go with the children as i please.. so going back to work isn't in my thoughts no more, I can get out for some socialization now!! LOL, way before getting out was pending on if Blair was working or not and he always seemed to be working on Days that i had something planned.

I can't belive its Mother's day weekend already. I am going to Priceclub tomorrow morning and geting some flowers for both our mothers, you can get two dozen roses for 18.99, i'm gonna seperate and give 12 to each mother. can't complain for 9.99 bascically for a dozen roses. I also invited blairs mom and dad and my mom and dad (whom i yet to invite.) to come over For Mother's Day Supper, I'll be cooking a Jiggs Dinner. Although.. i'm half of the mind to cancel till next weekend. BUT who knows ill sit on it overnight, i will buy the vegetables tomorrow, if I go ahead with it. Blairs mom doesn't get off work till 4:00 so its kind of a rush to come from work to my house sorta deal, so Who knows, maybe next weekend i can have it for Dinner not supper. Might be a better plan.

Today, i went and bought Claire tickets to the Carebears, at a local theatre. they were 28.50 plus tax, which wasn't a bad price, i've certainly paid more before. I found out there is sucha thing called "LAP CHILD" . becausly any child 2 and under, can sit on your lap and watch, which meaning i only have to buy ONE ticket. (why didn't i think of this before.) Now, for everyone who knows claire. She doesn't sit on your lap... NOR does she sit in her own seat!! She always runs up to the front, and watchs. I luckly got FRONT ROW "A" tickets, SO she can be in front of me watching the show, and i can sit and watch..lol.. My friend valerie is going to be doin the same thing. I was only going to be buying one ticket, but she called (and was the one who told me that the concert was comming) and asked me to buy her a ticket, since i'm the only fool who's going down to stand in line for 1 hour and half !! i went there , and there was still three people in front of me, One of them being there since 9am! nuts!! Looks like Carebears is more popular than max and ruby thats for sure.. at least it looked by the turn-up. I only showed up 10:50am, (not 10:30am like i did this morning) and i was first in line then. once i showed up, it was like give 10 mins, it was a long drag out the doors. I was lucky i guess to get front row tickets.. Hopefully claire will like them, we've had two good shows, and one bad show since we've seen. Franklin's Christmas , was ahit, DOODLEBOPS was a miss, but claire loved max & ruby..

Anyways thats about it. Hope you guys have a good weekend! I was going to go to bell island tomorrow, but we got a birthday party 12-2!

* Janice

By the way, Thanks to ASHLEY at SMG for making this layout. i haven't figured out to put her thingy here. But if you guys want to know how to get a layout made.. i'll give you the address.

Cleaning day!

Got up this morning and decided to get cleaning right away. Ever since the christening the house, was Neglected.. I cleaned up every day just not getting down and dirty sorta thing.lol.
Changed all the bed sheets this morning, gave the bathroom a good cleaning with javex, and wiped down the baseboards and window sills. Finally just took a break, before starting the never-ending laundry.

So I've come to the conclusion.. I NEED TO LOOSE WEIGHT!!! for myself, and only myself. I lost 5 lbs not long ago, i thought i gained it all back but i weighed myself this morning and its back to the same place i was when i was 5 lbs. I guess all those 1.50 mama burgers from a&w didn't hurt me. Although that gotta be a stop. I only had 2, but fast food, should never ever exisit for me. I'm thinking of joining weight watchers this weekend. Before, my three month thing with brady is up. Weight Watchers gives you Free Registration if you had a baby within 3 months. I really should take advantage of it. Since It's the summer, no reason to get outside, plus i have a treadmill in the rec-room that i frankly should be using way more.

My other Blog, www.xanga.com is getting a bit dull for me. thats why i started this blog really. the Only thing i liked about the Xanga blog, it was Protected. No one can read it unless I gives them permission, which i loved acaully.

I have to go get brady's mcp today. I know, i should have had it way before today, but i have to get it today, im' kinda getting that feeling "what if we have to go to the janeway" with him. Like we had to many times with Claire. Claire was a frequent flyer with the, to the point the Nurses knew her there!! LOL..

I can not wait for the summer to come. for the air to warm up, without much wind. But i'm probably guessing that in the east end thats hardly ever. I find it colder in the east end and more fog, although i can't imagine living anywhere else in the city.. Although i loved living on Terra Nova Road, it was in the center of everything and i loved the 5 min drive to work. lol.

Anyways, not much else to report.
I'll update Tomorrow Probably.